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I have been on a Thebump.com's TTCAL (Trying to Conceive After a Loss) board since my last m/c. It has been great with obsessing about getting KU, but since I am now trying to not obsess, I am making myself take a few steps back from it. I think it was really good for me in the beginning - I definitely handled this miscarriage better than my first (even though in some ways it was harder) because I had some place to vent other than Jason, but it's now become a bit unhealthy for me and I think even helped cause my insane obsession with getting pregnant again. And though I love the girls on it, there was some drama the past couple days that really helped me realize it wasn't as "wonderful" as I lead myself to believe. Isn't it crazy how even on the Internet, girls can still be catty with one another? I have dealt with WAY too much in real life (since I was about 6).

Anyway, Jason has been gone since Monday night and won't be back until late Sunday. And I have been staying with my parents because we only have one car and Jason has it. And I cam going crazy, because believe it or not, I am not 12 anymore and it's going to be okay if I don't spend every waking moment with my family. Sometimes Adia need our own time!!!! Argh!! OK, till next time....