I'm tired and have no clever idea for a bowel related title

In my search for different methods to help along the getting knocked-up process, I have started using a hormone cream. I used one very similar before Adia and it obviously helped. So, I started this three days ago and so far there haven't been any side effects with my body adjusting. Until now. It is exactly 2:43 a.m. as i write this and I have not been asleep yet because my IBS has decided to show up in ways I haven't experienced in years. Pretty sure it's related to the cream.
Not the best topic, but I haven't posted in a while and since I'm up with not much to do (besides run to the bathroom) I thought, "what the the hell".

more grumbles

I swear, every cycle AF seems to get worse. Between the cramps, the pissy mood and the never ending war zone "down there", I am thisclose to running down the road to the gas station and buying their finest bottle of Boones Farm. And I'm at work.
Oh, and speaking of work, today is my last day. Hopefully (or not?) I will have another job very soon. I'm probably going to be a golf pro shop girl again, like I was about 9 years ago. It will be a cake job, but pays like crap (but the discounts for Jason will be good).

I think I need a Good Friday service to get me focused.

I set myself up

and I'm disappointed. No new tax breaks for 2009.

*side note

First off, this isn't coming from anywhere but my own conscience. No one, on here or IRL (in real life), has yelled at me, told me I was an idiot or threw a shoe at me. Like I said, it's just something I feel the need to post. And here it is:

My getting and staying PG issues are VERY small compared to many other women out there. I feel like I whine a lot about what I'm going through, and in all reality, it is by nowhere near as hard and heart-breaking as it could be. I guess my bitching about "how long" it's taking is finally hitting a nerve with me and I need to get that out there. I am being a big baby and I am so sorry to those out there who have serious infertility issues and those who have lost their sweet babies much further along than me. Those ladies are truly strong and deserve much more appreciation and compassion than I am sure they get.

And yes, it's not horrible for me to be upset with what I have been through, but I think I have lost perspective along the way, so I'm trying to gain it back.