still trucking (with a bad attitude)

In case anyone is still reading this, I am not pregnant. No, I'm really not trying to hide anything or keep it a secret for a while. Wish I was, but no. Maybe this next time. But honestly, I have such a pessimistic outlook on it right now, I can't see me ever getting pregnant again. I know that is drastic and unlikely, but it is truly how I feel. I am slowly becoming bitter towards mom's with more than one child. I see them and automatically think mean thoughts about them just because they have been able to birth more than one kid. Totally ridiculous. And taking a break won't work. I still wonder and think about it all too much. So I am pretty much stuck here until I am knocked up. yay.